Last week after marveling that I got my oldest to his dentist appointment on time, my son flew out of the car. My first instinct was to check for cars. He zipped across the parking lot so fast I was still smiling when he slipped on the wet sidewalk. I stopped breathing when he went airborne. My body suddenly moved through rubbery air, the kind that pushes you back in heavy bounces, adding weight to your limbs, keeping you from any superhero rescue. My arms weren't going to stretch across the street to catch him. This wasn't a cartoon. The colors were all wrong to be one of the many animated shows I loved when I was a kid. Dusk with wet concrete everywhere I looked turned most surfaces black except where the street lamps created golden sparkles. I see this scene when I close my eyes because right after this snapshot before he landed I became human. Moms aren't human in their minds. Even the ones who downplay it. We're something more because we have to be. So my big guy always ready with a joke landed with the worst scream. Somehow I was there with rain drenched jeans and him writhing in my arms seconds later. It all took seconds. Racing me across the parking lot, beating me, slipping and falling on the slick sidewalk, breaking his femur and wrist, and changing the landscape of our future.
By the next day I discovered he has an insanely high pain threshold, he has soft bones, and a kid scared out of his mind who was just informed he'd have to have emergency surgery by an ER doc who did not think Will had anything more than a bruised bone could tell a disbelieving ER doctor a knock knock joke.
It's been mind blowing, a little heart breaking, and a lot soul affirming. Happy Holidays people.
Wednesday, November 9, 2016
Monday, October 31, 2016
I just found out we're getting 4 new 90 minute episodes of Gilmore Girls November 25th (on Netflix). I know, total awesomeness! So this month's theme song is the trailer. Man oh man. We're sure to laugh and cry and we dang well better swoon. By the way, you can watch all the episodes on Netflix or you can probably get the DVD's from your public library.
Hey, don't have Netflix? Have you tried their 30 day free trial preview? Time it just right to catch the shows you want to catch up on and don't forget to consider when you actually have time to binge watch. I have to wait until Christmas break usually.
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Then the Seahawks tied their game against the Cardinals Sunday night. A tie is nothingness. They played until they needed medical care and didn't get real closure. And Russell showed for the first time in any press conference I've ever seen actual annoyed dissatisfaction. Oh, he's been unhappy in the past. He's claimed this and that were his fault and listed things that needed improving, but a tie was not okay to him and not anything he could work on. So he said, "It is what it is." I gasped. I couldn't very well use my counter saying then.
Now you might think I need to lighten up. Sure. Always. But the truth of the matter is words matter. The ones you say out loud to top off trademark comments you make cement ideas and feelings into the way you view the world. You say "It is what it is," a total surrender comment and not in the Zen, life is suffering way, you're saying, what are you going to do? I can't do anything to change it." Even saying "Monkey poo" at the end of a rant is better than "It is what it is." So the next time those words slip out of your mouth, think if you said that as a kid. I had a saying when I was a kid because I was a bit angry. It was along the lines of "F*$@ 'em." That works too. What mantras do you say without realizing they're mantras?
Of course, Richard Sherman just said the crap line in his Harry Potter costume press conference and I didn't gasp or counter the words. He was dressed as Harry Potter with a wand and glasses and everything. Come on. I might just use that visual as my new mantra. Go 3-D.
Sunday, October 16, 2016
Here's a bit of inspiration, sass, kick in the pants from my "neat stuff" board on Pinterest.
"These mountains you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb." Najwa Zebian
I looked up Najwa and discovered she has a book of poems called Mind Platter. Looks wonderful!
"Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm." Winston Churchill
This quote is written a few different ways as its made its celebrity cruise through social media, but the meaning is all the same. Keep going, people.
"It's Monday. Time to take over the world." SHOPRIFFRAFF.COM
Who doesn't need a Monday ra-ra cheer.
"Virgo Today's Facts
All #Virgos speak at least five languages: English, Profanity, Sarcasm, Truth and Love." HoroscopesCafe.com
If you haven't checked out your Zodiac sign on Pinterest, kick your feet up and spend a little time on yourself. The quotes are spot on or they at least have my number.
"Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life." Pablo Picasso
Whatever your art form, indulge because it's plain good for you.
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Pumpkin spice, colorful leaves, crisp winds. It's October baby! I added the pumpkin spice for Bookworm Brandee. The girl loves the stuff! Fall also means football, spiders, and premature Christmas products in stores. I'm choosing a couple songs from my birthday mixed CD my sister made for me. Thanks Shann.
Hard to be grumpy listening to this song.
Fresh Eyes by Andy Grammer
Here's one for all those looking for a bit of inspiration because it's so pretty.
Lost Boy by Ruth B
Sunday, September 18, 2016
Yesterday I met Kristen Ashley. This is my first fangirl picture. In the last few years, I've met Patricia Briggs (sort of-I took a writer's workshop she gave), chatted (very briefly) with Elizabeth Hoyt, Sabrina Jeffries, Ann Aguirre, JA Huss, the list goes on, and attended as many author talks I could manage. But I've never asked for a picture. And after this photo I awkwardly hurried away. Seriously, why is it so hard to talk to your favorite authors? The event was held in Seattle, a big to-do with a banquet room full of women dressed up ready to celebrate our love of KA and her stories (uh, I wasn't dressed up because I'm a jeans girl). I danced, laughed, and made some new friends, all this through total book love. Gotta say, book girls rock.
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
Have a bad ass September!
My Girl by The Temptations
p.s. I have to give credit to my youngest for sharing his candy with me and broadening my horizons. That was real sweet of him. Ha! Sweet.
Monday, July 4, 2016
James Marsters reading as Harry Dresden in Jim Butcher's Dresden Files. If you're thinking the name James Marsters sounds familiar, it sure does! He's Spike from Buffy! Harry looks and acts nothing like Spike and the narration is so spectacular that I never confuse the two. Harry doesn't suddenly appear in my head as a platinum blond with an accent, fangs, and a near dying need for self-preservation. Harry Dresden is a wizard who works as a P.I. On the side he saves humankind over and over from some seriously scary supernatural baddies. If you haven't given this series a shot yet, get on it.
Kirsten Porter reading as a number of awesome heroines from back in the fictional day. I first heard her narrating for Maya Banks in Never Seduce a Scot. I followed her through all of Banks's historical romances and then discovered Joanna Bourne and her Spymaster series. If Porter is reading, you are sure to fall deep into the story and wish everyone understood if the earbuds are in, do not talk to me.
Happy July people. I hope it's filled with summer respite and ice cream.